I think I do. Sorta kinda… Maybe…..
Here’s the deal. I believe in creation and though very inquisitive I’m not interested in throwing my hat into the old earth new earth debate. I believe He’ll tell me when I get there. I believe in the Exodus and the parting of the Red Sea. I believe in manna. I believe in the fiery furnace. I believe in the virgin birth. I believe in the life, crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus Christ. I also believe in the Acts of the Apostles. I have witnessed miracles in my life and the lives of others. However, every time I face a new obstacle I wonder if God has a miracle for me.
When the Apostles asked Jesus to increase their faith He told them: “If you have faith as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, “Be pulled up by the roots and be planted in the sea, and it would obey you.
Luke 17:6 (NKJV)
Google images of a mustard seed and a mulberry tree.
So the living God is telling me all I need is this smidgen of faith and I can do the impossible. I believe in this truth when I counsel others and remind them how small a mustard seed is and how small faith can change the world. In all honesty, I don’t always believe it when I look at the woman in the mirror. In some ways that’s hypocritical.
In Mark after Peter points out that the fig tree Jesus rebuked had withered away. Jesus responded, “Have faith in God. For assuredly, I say to you. Whoever says to this mountain, Be removed and be cast into the sea and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.”
So God, what you’re saying to me is that my faith coupled with belief can move mountains? Are you sure? Like have you seen my mountains???????? Sometimes my faith in God mirrors my feelings on life vests; I know they can save me but I’m not in a hurry to have to find out. I’m sure at this point in our conversation God shakes His head and sighs. But there the mountain stands. So high I can’t climb it, wide enough that I can’t run around it and I’m left with either having to run straight through it (NOT) or say to it move and be cast in the sea.
You’d think that’d be it. Nope! Here it comes raw emotion! My chest tightens. My breathing quickens and shallows. And I cry, God why me? Like for real God I know I built part of this mountain but all that ain’t mine! I did not ask for my ancestors to drop their load of generational curses on my back. They have literally made me a 5’3” beast of burden yoked to myself carrying a load that I didn’t even have the pleasure of amassing. My back is bent and my body is breaking under the pressure. I play my suffering is the greatest with Jesus who took on the sins of the world. I profess my innocence to Jesus that knew no sin and became sin for the world so that we could be made righteous. Like really the burdens don’t match and He is literally waiting for me to pass my load off to Him.
At some point the Holy Spirit always reminds me that when my back is against the wall and there is no time to contemplate I run to God. I never lack faith in those times where a situation is so drastic that I don’t have time to look right or left only up. In those times I run straight to God with no confusion. I command that mountain to move with no fear or doubt. And it moves! Remembering this allows me to draw on that strength and I begin remembering the goodness of God and His miracles. I say to Him you are the God that created heaven and earth my problem is no match for you. You are the God who created the universe with your word and you live in me. Mountain be removed!
In Psalms 37:25 David said, “I have been young and now am old; Yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken, Nor his descendants begging bread.” There are times when it doesn’t just feel rough it is rough. Life is hard. We live in a fallen world. We will experience peaks and valleys. No matter what our emotions tell u we must remember emotions lie, emotions change, people lie, people change. God is not a man that He should lie. He does not change. He will never leave us nor forsake us. Us meaning you and ME! He is omnipotent (unlimited power). His yoke is easy and His burden is light. We can do all things through Christ! Even this.
Suggested Scriptures: (Palms and Scriptures can be recited in or as prayers)
Psalms 23, 34, 61 and 121
Father God I thank you for another opportunity to share my experiences with your people.
God I thank you for allowing me to be transparent
Lord at times it feels like our mountains are too big to move
But we know nothing is too big for you
I find peace in knowing that I don’t need to understand the how, all I need to know is you
Lord your word tells us not to fear evil as we walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Lord your word tells us that you delivered the people of Israel out of Egypt
It does not tell us every scientific detail of how you parted the sea but that you did part the sea
Father your word tells us that you opened the womb of an elderly Sarah allowing us to have faith in your promise not our timelines
You are the Lord God mighty in battle through faith in and obedience to you the walls of Jericho fell
Father my prayer for myself and your people is that when times get dark that we would look towards the hills from which cometh our help and that we will have faith in the fact that our help comes from you
Lord I pray that every time the enemy tries to confuse or minds and sew seeds of doubt that we would stand on your word and on your modern miracles to draw on faith in you
Lord you will never run out of miracles
Father God I believe in miracles not only for others but for me
When the battle is won and the sun shines we will not forget to give your name all the glory, honor and praise
In the mighty name of Jesus I pray